2018: I want to do it all!

As we rang in the new year, some of us made “resolutions” for ourselves. “Read more”, “diet”, “be more open minded”; and so on…but do we ever really keep these goals? Most of the time we don’t. We forget what we told ourselves we wanted to do in about a week or so. Why is that? Do we get side tracked? Or is it because we try to do it all on our own?

Matthew 19:26 says, “Jesus looked at them and said: “with men all things are impossible- but with me all things are possible.”

All things… not a few, not one of the top five: ALL.

It’s been 7 days now since 2018 has started, and many of us have already allowed fear, doubt, and failure enter our lives. Although I welcome 2018, I cannot allow myself to forget love, hard lessons, blessings, and trails that God has brought me through.

2017 wasn’t what I expected. 2017 holds a lot of pain that will be with me for a life time. 2017 also brought me joy & love. It taught me about healing, grace, Love, and how big our God actually is. 2017 is a year I won’t ever forget. The year our son was born. And the year he gained his wings… it pushes me out of my comfort zone so far that I don’t even know where it is anymore. And I’m kinda glad for that. God knew the storm was raging. That’s why he was there to anchor me.

In 2017 I was like Humpty Dumpty… (Yes the nursery rhyme). I was sitting on that wall just enjoying the sun… Until I fell down and shattered. All the kings horses and all the kings men- (in my case: doctors, words, family, friends: etc.)- couldn’t but Humpty together again…. but that’s not where my story ended! Mine goes like this:

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall. Humpty Dumpty had a great fall. All the kings horse men and all the kings men couldn’t put Humpty together again- but Jesus can!

You see I couldn’t fix anything. I was trying to fix every thing on my own. Then I shattered even more…. Can you imagine an egg falling off a wall? Egg shells everywhere! You can put that back together… That’s what it felt like for myself… But God knew that I would fall. God knew I would need him to pick every tiny piece of me and put me back together again… He knew that I wouldn’t be able to. He also knew That in time, I would allow him to help me. “For you are the potter and I am the clay.” He molds us in his image.

So yes I welcome 2018. I welcome it because I’m not the same me as last year. I have grown so much that it’s odd for me to realize at times. But I decided that I wouldn’t make resolutions this year, because they always get broken. This year I decided to stay out of the comfort zone. If you don’t get out of the comfort zone you can’t grow… Sometimes even a plants need to be repotted. We are the flowers in Gods garden. He knows what we need. He knows when we need to be moved, watered, and even have weeds pulled from around us… It may hurt at times, but remember light always shines through the darkness eventually.

So as 2018 starts – remember what ever you decide to do- let God lead you. If I try to do it alone- it’s impossible…but if God helps me- it’s always possible.

Happy 2018! Let’s allow this year to be God’s year for us.

-Marli