Feeling like Mary…

Christmas Eve is here and it’s a tad unbelievable. How could the year fly by so fast? For me it’s more like, “How is all the things I’ve prayed for here and all the firsts I missed now I am getting to see.” It’s a difficult and joyful time. Just like I believe Mary felt.

Mary was told she would carry the Messiah. I can imagine she believed, yet she didn’t understand how when it happened how it would feel… Just like Mary I’m feeling that too this Christmas. Two years I’ve prayed for another chance. For two years I’ve missed first things, first steps, first coos, first everything. And God answered those prayers and sent a child. Just like Mary, her child was sent to save the world from sin. To save her from sin. Just like Mary my child came to heal and save me from despair.

Mary held Jesus that night, in awe of him. I imagine him looking at her smiling at the woman who would care for him and trusted God. She pondered those moments. I imagine her heart being overwhelmed and overflowing with joy. Just like Mary this Christmas I feel that same emotions. Overwhelming, overflowing, unbelievable emotions that I thought would never happen again.

This Christmas maybe the pray you’ve prayed hasn’t been answered yet. Keep praying ! God hears you. But this Christmas be like Mary. Trusting God with his plan. Yet taking time to slow down and ponder on all the small moments in life, allowing them to be written on your heart. Just like Mary, cling to Jesus this season. He may have came into this world as a baby, but He is able to save you. A baby changes everything. A baby can save you from despair.

Merry Christmas to all & a Happy New Year!


Angel mom to Rhett

Rainbow mom to Selah

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