I was watching a sermon this week, and the pastor was preaching about Paul. Paul wrote most of the New Testament & we see Paul as this HUGE disciple that did many great things. Paul wrote letters to inspire church’s, but did you know that the people thought he wasn’t an amazing preacher? Did you know that Paul felt that he wasn’t as great as the preachers then? Did you know he felt unworthy & unqualified to be the lighthouse that he was and is today.
Paul said, “When I am weak, then I am strong.” However when we feel weak, we feel unqualified. We feel that we shouldn’t be doing what we feel called to. We feel that God made a mistake and that he chose the wrong person. But “WHAT IF” the pain you had to endure, the road you had to travel growing up, the mistake you chose, the thing you prayed God would take from you but didn’t – what if that is what makes you qualified to be the lighthouse in that harbor that you are Stationed in. God sees the finished product. He sees the people you can reach. He knows the things he wants you to do. God knows you are unqualified… but he didn’t call qualified people.
When God called Paul, he was Saul. He killed Christians. He was evil and mean and he didn’t really think Jesus was going to help him, but God changed him on that road. He was blinded. He was made to sit still and wait upon the Lord.
We all have been there. People who was a lighthouse in our lives didn’t just get where they are from just going to church. I know a lady I looked up to for years and knew God so well, did you know I didn’t truly know her full story? I didn’t know how she got stationed where she was. I didn’t know the pain she had to go through to become the lighthouse that years later shown on me. I didn’t know the life she had to live and how she had to get to Know God the way she did to get her calling.
We all have been called to be a lighthouse. We think of lighthouses to be super tall and strong and stands true in through the storms. Which is true, but some lighthouse are small and over looked. Some lighthouse have to have maintenance done on them before they shine their light like one before, some are be built and do not realize their calling yet.
I know I am an unqualified lighthouse. I am a lighthouse that had to be built through pain and tears. My bricks where laid through trails I did not want to go through. I prayed Like Jesus did in the garden “Take this from me”. I prayed that what I had to live through wouldn’t happen. I prayed for a miracle that didn’t happen the way I felt it should, but what I see now- 3 years later- is I was being built to be a lighthouse to shine upon people who have to go through loss…
Like Paul, I do not feel like I am called to be this lighthouse. Paul’s biggest weakness, made him a writer of books for the Bible. If he would have been a better speaker, would we be reading his letters today? Probably not… You see the things we have to endure is shaping us to be what we think is unqualified, but in someone’s world- our unqualified lighthouse is shining in their direction…
So today, I know that times are uncertain. It’s scary, it’s not what we imagined, things can be hard to come by, and we are summoned to our homes- but God still is calling and building lighthouses. Wether you feel qualified or not, we have a purpose. We have a calling wether we want to admit it or not. Our stories, our Endearments in this life, make us viable in the kingdom of God. And like Paul, if we will let our weakness be Gods strengths- the light we are suppose to shine will reach the people who needs it most.
As the church is not allowed to meet at the time being, let the unqualified lighthouse fix their lights upon the Lord and shine onto the people who need it today in this world. People are searching for this light, the question is- “Will you let you light shine? Or will you hide it under a bush?”.
Prayers for everyone in our world. Those fighting through sickness, trying to help the ill, those staying home, and those mourning. May God be with you all.
~Marli -Angel Mom to Rhett Alec -Rainbow Mom to Selah